Saturday, October 13, 2007

in love

I left my heart so long ago
in my imagination
now Deepak talks of imaginal cells
beyond human sensation
and butterflies offer a laugh
as tears drown inspiration
just because nobody near
cares

I left my hope so long ago
in my procrastination
when Gandhi talked of selfless acts
and love's emancipation
I bought into a savior's crossing
with holy proclamation
but all I found was nobody
shares

it's a give and take world with everybody taking
and all my giving leaves me empty inside
it's a disillusioned child with a heart still breaking
still looking for a magic carpet ride
and all the half-hearted efforts to give up
to accept the apathy that is the norm
doesn't seem to work for me, there is no holy cup
that brings me comfort in the current storm

what do you want?
what do you want?
I waste my time with these words
are your ears open?
do your eyes see?
what do you believe is me?

what do you want?
what do you want?
why do you come to these words?
what can you relate to?
do you know what is true?
what do you want to do?
who are you?
and what do you want to do?

I left my dream so long ago
in tortured isolation
now Rumi talks of whirling spells
and holy copulation
and caterpillars shed a tear
for human population
a race lost in lies and despair
fears

I left my faith so long ago
in rational revelation
now holy talk of heaven and hell
is sad self-mutilation
does anyone live without fear?
in innocent elation
laughing at the masks everyone
wears

it's a give and take world with everybody taking
and all my giving leaves me empty inside
it's a disillusioned child with a heart still breaking
still looking for a magic carpet ride
and all the half-hearted efforts to give up
to accept the apathy that is the norm
doesn't seem to work for me, there is no holy cup
that brings me comfort in the current storm

but I don't want to play that game anymore
the happy child inside wants to laugh again
trying to fit in to belong to not be alone
is a waste of time in a world of pretense

so keep your promise of tomorrow
living in your world of sorrow
as if this is not the place to be
you are wasted from the start
when fear and lies fill your heart
truth is nothing when you will not see
how can you be trusted?
when you don't take responsibility
how can you be trusted?
when you condemn your own ecstasy
how can you be trusted?
when you live for some future fantasy
how can you be trusted?
when you ignore your own reality

what do you want?
what do you want?
I waste my time with these words
are your ears open?
do your eyes see?
what do you believe is me?

what do you want?
what do you want?
why do you come to these words?
what can you relate to?
do you know what is true?
what do you want to do?
who are you?
and what do you want to do?

I don't want to be no prophet
I don't want to be no sage
I don't want to be no savior
no guru ahead of my age
I don't want to be no genius
I don't want to be above
I don't want to be no poet
I just want to be in love
I just want to be in love
I just want to be in love
I just want to be in love
I just want to be in love
I just want to be in love
I just want to be in love
I just want to be in love
I just want to be in love
I just want to be in love
I just want to be in love
I just want to be in love
I just want to be in love
I just want to be in love
I just want to be in love
I just want to be in love
I just want to be
in love
in love
in love
in love
in love
in love
in love
in love
in love
in love
in love
in love

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I left my love so long ago
in betrayed veneration
self-pity and apathy
replaced inclination
joined the web of wasting time
mental masturbation
acute alliteration
self-mocking frustration
synaptic undulation
irreverent aeration
human beneficiation
rhyming affectation
revered imitation
yeah
yeah
yeah

but after all is said and done
I just want some harmless fun
and to share honesty
in reality
and I just want to share
how much I can care
without fear…
and with
honest appreciation
living jubilation
pure emancipation
free invigoration
true actualization
infinite suaviation
creative inspiration
passionate exultation
and playful relaxation
in love
in love
in love - I just want to be
in love
in love
in love - I just want to be
in love
in love
in love - I just want to be
in love

2 comments:

serenity said...

No matter which branch I randomly click on it seems like the one I pick is THE one. You express from those places inside of you with words that are not only so melodious but also with sincerity that is touchable. Thank you for flowing with words that are so touchable, especially for those of us who fumble around with words, never feeling quite satisfied that we have captured quite right what it is we feel or think.

Love, love, love, and more love :)

candoor said...

YAY! and thank you for the way you read me, for your response, for your trust, and for being you :)